in her apology, rousey called the original post “the single most regrettable decision of my life … i watched a sandy hook conspiracy video and reposted it on twitter.”
the fighter-turned-wrestler said that she didn’t even believe the video, but couldn’t come to grips with the truth at the time.
“i didn’t even believe it, but was so horrified at the truth that i was grasping for an alternative fiction to cling to instead,” she wrote. “i quickly realized my mistake and took it down, but the damage was done.”
rousey said that she has struggled to write the apology for the past 11 years and feared she could “be causing even more damage by giving it.”
she also wrote that she drafted an apology to include in her latest book, but “my publisher begged me to take it out, saying it would overshadow everything else and do more harm than good.
“i convinced myself that apologizing would just reopen the wound for no other reason than me selfishly trying to make myself feel better, that i would hurt those suffering even more and possibly lead more people down the black hole of conspiracy bulls*** by it being brought up again just so i could try to shake the label of being a ‘sandy hook truther,'” she added.
she closed the apology with a message to those who have fallen for conspiracy theories and that believing such harmful ideas doesn’t make someone “an independent thinker.”