it’s hard. you cannot really blame the doctors, the team that we had in genetics and oncology, they were the best doctors that we could have had. in fact, five years before they saw alex oliver, there had been another child with hurler who had a bone marrow transplant with that team of doctors and everything had gone well. after the first transplant didn’t work, we could see that [the oncologist] was devastated. we weren’t mad at him, but he was mad at himself. after the second transplant failed, he couldn’t even look at us anymore. he did the best that he could.
i would say, for my part, you don’t really have time to cope because you’re always making sure everything is ok. there are so many things that you need to look after. usually one of us would stay at a hospital and the other one would go home to sleep. even when it was my turn to go home, i couldn’t not think about it. i was always thinking about a possible solution.
there are some days that i’m still frustrated — i’m frustrated that everybody did their best, but still, things happened the way they did. alex oliver spent way too long at the hospital during a crucial time in his development — he was there between the age of two and almost three, so he lost a lot of precious time.
i think he’s stable now. but there are a lot of things that he can’t do. for example, with covid, he hasn’t been to school, so for him, it’s hard to always be here with me at home. you can see that he is anxious to go back to school because he likes seeing new people. i don’t think he’s mad, but we can’t really communicate with him because he has an intellectual disability. he’s seven years old, but mentally, he’s between one and two. so, i can’t ask him,
are you happy today?
we don’t really know, but i think generally speaking, he’s ok. but we can’t wait to give him some kind of a normal life.